Posted: 22/10/2008 at 06:41
I had a sweep on Monday and since then had continuous brownish discharge (sorry for TMI). While I was there I was booked into having an induction on Friday (meaning I have to call up Thursday night and go in then if they have a bed). So since Monday I've been trying to coax labour on but it's just not working and I'm really worried about being induced, mainly because of the thought of possibly having to stay in hospital for a few days. I was admitted in about a month ago and diagnosed with Ante-natal depression but due to some emergencies I was left on my own, in my own room, unable to leave the ward, talk to anyone (unless my OH was able to visit), and for what I thought would take a few hours I was in for 28 hours. It was the first time I'd ever spent in hospital and hated it... it actually made me feel more anxious and nervous - not what you need when you have AND.
I had booked in with a birthing unit (about an hours drive away from me) because the care after birth sounded fantastic compared to the care given in an already over-stretched hospital, and due to that care it was be really good for me due to the AND and i wouldn't feel rushed and I would have been more guarenteed a water birth. But, now I'm 41+2 and the threat of being induced is learing I'm getting more and more nervous, everyone around me has had their babies (most of them early) and I haven't even had a false labour. It's just made me feel really down and scared and the thought of not being in my own home with my OH for even a night upsets me.
Is anyone else in the same position? Is there anything I can do? :\?