Posted: 05/01/2011 at 14:14
thanks everyone. Yesterday had a big black cloud over it!! dunno why because i do realise how lucky i am it was a stress overload and I dont think it helped that I restareted the pill recently and I think its gone a bit crazy with my hormones etc, i'm going to stop it Its has never agreed with me but thought i'd try the mini pill as never had that one before. I have the HV coming round on tuesday for a chat about pnd etc I dont think i have it, i think I have difficulty handling stress I just seem to get really annoyed or breakdown I need to find a way to chill out a bit. When I read what you went through Dee with Andrew and everything I really have nothing like the stress you were facing i really need to get a grip.
I think once Erin starts school next week (the last thing of her huge changes in her lil life). Hopefully things will then start to become into a bit more of a routine. I mean Erin has had to deal with such alot with me having fearne and due to the section wasn't very playful with her and couldn't go out for such a long time. Then christmas came and that I think overwhelmed her and got her out of routine, oh and the dummy fairy's came in november, she knows she is starting school next week which must be a worry for her (well i know i'm worried anyway). And today I have tried to be in a better mood and she has been an angel, so i think my mood reflects in hers or vice verser. She really isn't the demon kid i was thinking she was yesterday. Me and Paul also had a huge heart to heart last night both opened up a lot and I think I have been unreasonable at times and he has accepted he has too, so thats a good step for us. And we ended up going to bed
iykwim!? for first time since having fearne
So hopefully days like yesterday are few and far between oh and i am going to call bf advisor tomorrow to hopefully alleviate all my concerns about Fearnes feeding and if not I'm going to stop feeding once i reach 3 months.
Thanks again, I do realise I often don't come on here for a while and I don't always post on everything and then come on when I have problems, but i find this site great for getting it all out and makes me feel better (like therapy!), even though my fam and pauls fam know I use it i'm hoping they don't read what i write!? Just wanted to say a huge thanks for always giving me advice when i'm not very good at giving it !!
thank you from the bottom of my heart x x x