I have got passed being blunt, the woman put me in hospital whan i was pregnant because she ragged me so much she put my bloodpressure up! They should be banned!!!!

well i have been on my tablets for a couple of days, even thogh i know they take a week or so to kick in, i do feel alot more calm and relaxed and my dreams at night arent so bad. i managed to get out with the girl yesterday and it wasnt too bad, when people asked me how i managed with twins, is it hard work. i just smiled and said no not hard work just alot of work.... it actually made me feel go getting out and i got back home and i played with the girls for a while and i actually really enjoyed it and it didnt feel forced.
hows everyone else doing??

Im having a good day too, im so glad you enjoyed getting out yesterday with the twins, i know the tablets said a week or fortnight to work but i felt different almost from the first one. I am happier now that im more relaxed and your right that you dont feel like you are forced to have fun and enjoy your babies, i feel like i want to be around Ellie now and not just because i have to. Any plans for this weekend? Im hopeing i might get out for the first time for an entire night without Ellie, we are hopeing to go for dinner then on to the pub for a while, havnt done this from she was born. I dont want to get too excited about it incase it dosnt work out. What are you up to today? xxx

well my day is a nightmare. it wasing so well i felt fantastic. i went to pick up brianna from her plat mat and as i picker her up i had her head to low as i bringing her to me and i hit her head. i brust into uncontrolling tears and so did she. i didnt mean to do it, i rang my husband up screaming i didnt mean to do it. he calmed us both down, then brianna started laughing at me which cheered me up. tatum is really clingy today, she is teething and wont let me put her down. nappy free time worked for a bit until she got bored so is on my lap again.......................i tried alking around with her in thesling but she cried most the time. arrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggg
but apart from the big cry today i am feeling alot more cheery. if i had of cried like that i few days ago i would have found it hard to pick myself back up and if the girls had of been clingy and crying all the time a few days ago i think i would have lost my cool. i differently think i am calm, i have to be to be not pulling my hairout today.
sounds nice getting out for the night. make sure u do it. we have managed a few nights out here and there, mother in law is a night mare so we dont ask much. we were going to start a regular night out each week but mil just doesnt turn up on time so its hard to make plans with our time... arggggggggg but we make sure we get one good evening out a month, last month it was a big party in london for one of our friends, this month its a ladies night, as mu husband is in the masions and there is always ladies nights for other lodges. then next month its my mates 30th.... it is nice to have something to look forward to... and as for a night off away from the girls and the hubby, my hubby got together with one of my close mates and they have put together a night out. this time last yr i had my hen weekend but i was pregant so couldnt drink, and my husband knows how much i have been down and needing to get out. so he asked my mate to plan me a nightout on the town with the girls as my first big night out since the girls were born and also as a kinda make up do more my lack of drinking on the hen weekend. nice... thats next weekend so looking forward to it really.

Im so pleased for you Marsha, you really sound so much more up-beat. I have had a shit day, hubby is off sick and he is doing my head in. He lay in bed till 2pm which was fine but then got up and ate the face of me because Ellie was crying. As i pointed out she was tired and she always winges for a minute or two before nodding off. He then yapped on and on for no reason as though he was looking a row and i just lifted Ellie and put her in the car and drove away as i swear i was going to go mad at him.
I try my best and he is so ungreatful at times, he was cross as i made chips and garlic bread with cheese but i forgot to put the cheese on the chips!
Anyway im glad your getting out, it will be like your second hen party. I think i should have another one too as i was 6 months pregnant when i got married and i had my hen party at 5 months so no drinking either! Maybe i could get a stripper!!!!! LOL

i think i may have pnd, i keep crying hysterically then i will be fine and feel stupid for makin such a big fuss, then i'll be right back there crying again, i love my son to pieces, and i do see to him whenever he cries and do look after him- i don't think i've lost interest in him but i do just think when he cries please stop! i've had enough, then i will keep saying sorry to him coz i just feel so bad for getting annoyed at him!
I've just split from my husband and i don't know if i've done the right thing or if its depression!!
I don't know what to do, i can't talk about things like this to people so i just go on trying to cope with things on my own!

samantha, have you been to your doctor? its best to go just for a chat, they do a quiz test to see what scale you are and gp can talk about whats best for you. maybe your down about your split from your hudband but this can also trigger pnd, so do take care wont you.
well i am feeling alot more calm on tablets, and i have had a cry since the other day. i found it hard to get to sleep last night i must say, which i was i had fallen to sleep straight away as the girls slept from 7;30pm until 5;30am it was fantastic, no middle of the night feed it was fab..
diane, think u did the best just walking out and going for a drive, its not not to fuel a situation like that one. husbands can really be pains in the backsides when u could really do without it....
i tried the girls on carrot yesterday, they spat in my face, loverly!!! how could i be depressed when i have getting spat at to look forward to....lol
hope all is well
marsha

Hi Samantha, you have had a rough time of it lately, why dont you go see your gp like Marsha said, it cant do any harm and if it is pnd just having someone to talk to can help so much.
Marsha how are you? how are the girls?
Ive had a lovely weekend and only got pissed of with the hubby once! Im going to go to bed early tonight too and he is doing the night shift tonight. How are you finding the tablets now? xxx

hi diane
i wish i could say i like being on the tablets.
i think i might have to go and so my doctor.
i dont seem to be able to sleep with these tablets, i am awake for about 3 hours before i can get to sleep. my girls have start to just about sleep through the night but i am not getting the bennefit from it as i am not sleeping. then this morning when the girls woke up at 4am, i had to run down the stair to be sick. i flet really rough, i do hope its just the tablets reacting and not anything thing else. the hubby made a joke and said i could be pregant, well i didnt take that as a joke and snapped back.....
i think the hubby would love to try for another baby, thats the last thing i am thinking about right now, i dont think i want another one, ful stop.... too high of a risk for another set of twins................
i seem to be feeling ok from taking the tablets apart from the not sleeping and being sick this morning. i dont have any silly thoughts and i havent been emtional at all . i think they are working i just wish i could sleep.

Hi Marsha, what time do you take the tablets at? I find first thing in the morning is the best, even after lunch is getting late. I know they do keep you awake but this is because one of the side efffects of depression is wanting to sleep all the time and so the tablets are designed to keep you awake. If you take them too late they will just keep you up at night, i would try them at around 9 or 10 am. xxx

thanks for the advice, but thats the time i already take my tablets. i usually feed the girls, have some breakfast and then take my tablets around 9ish. i didnt sleep too bad last night, i hope the tablets are finally starting to settle in..

I hope they selttle down for you soon. Im exhausted and have a feeling im pregnant again. Think i will wait and test after valentines. Have you any plans for the big night? Im hopeing to be in bed by 9 and get at least 10 hours sleep!

wow you think your pregant again, have you been trying??
let me know what th out come is...
no, no big plans for valentines day, we are going to spend the day together with the girls, go somewhere nice for lunch and go for a nice long walk................. didnt really fancy the hassle of getting a baby sitter..
i have always said that i never wanted more than two kids, but the last couple of days i have these really weird feelings, that i want more kids and that i would love to be pregant again. mad i know... i kinda miss being pregant but i didnt really have the best pregnacy so i guess i feel like this maybe cause i want to know what its like to go full term, but who is to say i will go full term and who is to say it wont be twins again..... i dont think i could deal with more than two kids. i know the hubby wants to have a little boy, but i dont want to try for another one and end up with another set of twin girls, and him saying lets try for a boy........arggggggggggggggg. i think its just my hormones, well i hope it is, otherwise please put me in a looney bin if i say i want to try for another baby...........

LOL Marsha. We were trying for another but then decided to wait for a few months as we are hopeing to move house away from the mil. I think its a bit late now though, i have this sneeky feeling that i am. I also have the fear of twins, they run in our house too. I really would like a boy to finish off our family but as you said, where do you stop? If i had another girl would i go again?
How far along where you when you had the twins? I had Ellie 2 weeks early but i think they got my dates mixed up. I think there comes a time when we see the los growing up that we are just programmed to want more, thank God for the pill!!! LOL xxx

i just re read my message and made myself laugh.......
u should do the test and tell the other half on valentines day as a gift.............................
u have me in despence woundering if u are pregant, let me know. what do u hope???
i know if u try for a boy and get a girl, where do u stop, i know a couple that tried for a boy so many times they now have 4 girls and 2 boys.
i had my twins at 32wks, i was out with friends in the afternoon and hadnt been feeling well for a few days. i went home with my husband, he cooked dinner and i sat there while he was cooking saying how hungry i was, then when i went to eat i felt sick and didnt feel hungry and had extremly bad back pain. called the hospital they said to come straight up and what do u know after a few hours of monitoring they finally did an internal and found out i was 5cm dialated... and it all went from there. i did have a major scare at 27wks, i had to have a steriod injection to help the girls lungs if they were born early. i knew i would have them early after that, but didnt think it would be that early. the scare at 27wks was from a water infection, they never said whey i went into labour at 32wks but i think it was the same thing....
so are twins on ur side of the family then????
i slept really well on my tablets last night, but i felt really sick again yesterday, if it keeps up i will have to go see my doctor again.
looking forward to my girls nightout on saturday should be a laugh....

Marsha you had a time of it. I also had the worst pregnancy ever, from heavy bleeding early on, high bloodpressure, low amniotic fluid, sevear migraine, pregnancy rash and being told i was having a huge baby but to name a few!
I would like to have another baby but im scared its because i feel ok on the tablets and if i come off them will i go back to the way i was? I couldnt stand that, Ellie deserves better, i was awful!
I will be happy if i am but wary at the same time and if i went on to have another girl i would set the limit at 3 babies for definate. Twins run on my side, my dad is a twin, my granny is a twin and i have 2 sets of twin cousins! I was terrified of my first scan with Ellie that they would say i had 2!
Are you going out for dinner or just out for a drink on saturday? Is hubby babysitting? xxx

i didnt know i was having twins until 20wks..................... shocked me, as everyone had been teasing saying i was massive and i should be having twins, that was two days before my scan and what do u know they got their wish.
there is 4 sets of twins that we know of on my side of the family and two on my husbands.
maybe speak to ur doctor about cutting back ur dose or weaning u off them and see how u feel. how long u been on them for?
out for dinner sat night then to a club, first time since my hen weekend.... hubby has the girls, he was the one that sorted it out so i expect him to do it, he loves spending time with the girls more than he does me i think as he is a big kid himself.

hey all just got diagnosed with post natal depression yesterday im 19 i shouldnt be feeling like this i got put on fluxine or some thing prozac in my eyes
i had my baby girl 15 days ago and it was a horrible pregnancy and a horrible labour lo was back to back with her head awkward she got stuck and had failed forceps and a c section i feel like im not a good mam and i cant cope i cant be in the house by my self with out having a panic attack its awful just feel like everyone will se me as a failier (sorry cant spell) as i am on anti-depressants and cant cope my mam and dad have been a god send i keep snipeing at my boyfriend and i dont feel like eating of sleeping i see the psycatrist every week i just dont like talking i love my baby girl more than anything i just cant give her what she needs xx

Hi hun, im sure you are doing fine. Its bloody hard work with a newborn but it does get easier. Keep your chin up and i hope the tablets kick in for you. Dont worry about snipping at your bf, you have just had a baby and im sure your still very sore, your hormones will settle down and im sure you will feel like your old self soon. Stress is high with a new baby in the house and im sure your bf and family know this so dont be afraid to ask for help. Im always here if you want to chat. xxx

trying to get over the shock that my mum is in hospital.
i dont know if i ever mention that my mum had post nantal depression, they told her she had it a year after she had my younger brother ( there is a massive gap between me and him) he is now 7. any way they then went on to find out she was actually depressed and she was on tablets for some while a couple of years, she was admitted into hospital with it at some point for a week or so. i thought she had gotten over it, she has been better for over two years now i think and ithought she had put it all behind her. when she came over to england to visit me last october i thought she seemed fine, then i rang to talk to her yesterday and i was told by my dad that she went loopy a few days ago and they put her in hospital. then dad tells me this morning that she had for some reason i dont know put herself back on the tablets she had been on thats what had sent her over the edge they think. she is going through the change of life and was depressed and for some reason thought they would help her. she had been on them for three months, i hadnt managed to see over the phone that there was something wrong. know i feel really bad. looking back i can see a few signs of help but at the time i didnt think any thing of it. dad said she is a mess, i was half thinking of going out there but i am due to fly out there in 6 weeks any way so i think i will leave it until then. this is why i didnt want to go on tablets, seeing what they can do to you. but i would never be as stupid as my mum and take them when i shouldnt be. i am so made at her, cos she gave me an earful the other day on the phone saying make sure u go to your doctor if u want the tablets dont let it get bad and so on. then she goes and does this, i just want to know how she managed to get engough tablets for the last three months when her doctor didnt even know she was on them. apparently her doctor flipped at her, cant believe she just started taking them, wants her to go see a specalist for menapores (sorry about spelling)
sorry i had to get it all off my chest, meant to be going out tonight, dont know how i am going to relax to have a good time. one of my twins was up all last night she is teething but at the same time has managed to get a really bad cold and conjunktivitis in her eyes or how ever u spell it...lol the poor little thing just couldnt sleep and just wanted me to cuddle her so mummy never got any sleep either.