I know i probably just need to get a grip but im really struggling with severe SPD. I can't get up my stairs and have to use a commode in a cupboard, im in constant pain so not getting any sleep. The consultant has given me painkillers and physio has given me crutches etc but i now struggle to even walk to the kitchen without suffering. My hubby works away so for the next two weeks Thankfully my parents are coming to stay with me to keep me company, look after the animals and me.

The thing is as the title says im concerned that im becoming very blue, i can't seem to shake myself out of this sadness, im down because i was enjoying my pregnancy and now im not, because i can't go and see friends and im now completely reliant on other people (which i hate). The consultant has said he will induce me at 38 weeks but now im worried that i can't keep myself together for another 4 weeks, that inducing the baby early will have negative effect and it will be all my fault so i feel guilty.

I really am in a muddle at the minute. Im seeing the midwife tomorrow and im going to ask for a wheelchair so that my parents can at least take me out for some fresh air.
I feel such a let down to my baby and husband and family. Im really struggling to keep myself positive through this and feel such a failure for being so miserable. I can't wait to hold my baby but right now i can't see past the pain. is that selfish?

Sorry to rant just feeling a little crap!

any advice, help etc greatly appreciated.
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33+6

Orr hun i'm so sorry to hear your feeling this way and yes it is totally normal.

I have suffered with spd in all of my pregnancies and it is already very sore and i am only 16 weeks so i am dreading how bad it is going to get.

Please just try and keep your spirits up and look forwadr to your new arrival and remember that it is only temperary and will be over soon

Good luck and best wishes x x

oh hunny -

if there was any risk to baby they wouldnt induce you at 38 weeks so please dont worry about that, you are well and truly full term and Oli will be fine.

With regard to relying on other people - hubby had to get me out of bed last night to go to the toilet! If the boot was on the other foot you would be helping your family - so as frustrating as it is it is we would do the same for them - you must remember that whatever is going slightly wrong with us has no effect on our babies and we are still doing the most amazing thing and growing out little babies.

Speak to your midwife about the depression becasue my consultant asks me every week how i am feeling emotionally just in case i need a little more support.

You can hire wheelchairs from the red cross, they are in much better condition than the hospital ones. My one cost ??15 for the first 2 weeks and then 5 punds a week thereafter. And it meant that i can be wheeled along the seafront for fresh air and even go to the supermarket (though have only done this once).

Def speak to midwife - but remember you are still doing the a=most amazing thing in the world.

Big hugs to you and Ollie and big GRRRRRRRR to your hips and pelvis x