So depressed

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21/04/2007 at 12:05
Hi, im new here and could really do with a chat.
Im 30 weeks pregnant and getting so very depressed about my weight. Ive put on 3 stone so far and stll have 10 weeks to go.

I never thought pregnancy would be this hard. I love my baby so much but am seriously hating being pregnant.

Everytime I look in the mirror I cry and think how disgusting I look. Is this normal?..

My husband is having a hard time dealing with me and doesnt know how to help. I dont mean to be so hormonal.. but I just cant deal with another 10 weeks of this. I seriously think im loosing the plot. Im getting so angry and want to smash everything up!.. It worries me...

Can anyone advise me? :cry:
21/04/2007 at 12:13
cant help.but know how you feel, im getting so fed up but I only have 4 weeks left.it seem like forever.my first date is the 13th May but was changed to 20th May at my scan, but I am sooo hoping that the 13th is right at least it will knock 1 week off.I think I have put a couple of stone on but it is suprising how much will be baby weight by the time you have baby,placenta and fluid.it probably wont be as bad as you think.I know it hard but try to enjoy your pregnancy its not forever.if you feel realy bad tell your doctor or midwife so they can help.All the best and take care
21/04/2007 at 12:20
Your feeling quite normal kiddo! I often look in the mirror and think yuk. I put 2.5 stone on with my 1st, 3 with 2nd and this one is going same way. I dont overeat and eat generally healthily. but I am only 5ft tall. Even tho I was slim to start with, any weight gain is bound to show. All I can say is it does come off at its own pace and look forward to that and getting new clothes after baby is born also, you could try some aromatherapy to help calm you... frankincense, cammomile and geranium (suitable from 16 weeks) all help moods and intense feelings and even lavendar from 32 weeks for relaxation. Give it a whirl, what have you got to lose?
21/04/2007 at 12:22
thanks kat2007.
I appreciate kind words from anyone right now.

I know im having a seriously off day... but im worried how i will cope for the next 10 weeks. Not long to go for you now then.... Im pleased for you.

Im trying to enjoy the experience but just feel so ugly and worthless right now.

The hardest thing im finding is that I miss the intimacy with my husband. He hasnt come near me for 5 months now. (not that I want sex at this time but I just miss our closeness)...

Im finding every aspect of pregnancy so hard. I cant wait to have my little boy though and hope ill feel better after the birth.

I hope your right about the baby weight. The problem is, you hear so many different stories.. and everyone is different I suppose.

Anyway thanks for your encouragement. I really appreciate it.

21/04/2007 at 12:23
dont be depressed on your own !!!!!! ive put on 3 stone and my oh isnt happy about it but he can kiss my fat arse speak to your midwife she can arrange some help 4 u dont hold it inside and chat to all of us when you need to DONT GO THROUGH THIS ALONE come and chat any time sharron xx
21/04/2007 at 12:27
thanks also funky rabbit & honeymummy3
your support is so much appreciated. I shall try your suggestions!

This message board is great, I wish I had seen it earlier!...
Ive been 'trying' to use femalefirst but you really get some idiots on there messing around.

Have you guys all been having sex throughout your pregnancy?


21/04/2007 at 12:30
ive been having loads of it ( luky me )
21/04/2007 at 12:33
yes not quite as often as normal but still enough. Its been a bit painful at times tho but we do other stuff too (sorry if TMI)!
21/04/2007 at 12:34
hehe, i have been having sex all the way through as im lucky enough to have a brilliant fiance who keeps reassuring me that he still finds me as sexy as ever, even though i dont feel it! being normally slim, i find it a huge change to have put on weight through my pregnancy, but i know that after my little boy is born i will be able to work it off - im due in 9days now! x x x
21/04/2007 at 12:45
that must mean theres something wrong with my relationship??....
He's not even said to me that he misses the intimacy..?.. Do you think he's gone off me because of the weight gain?

He says he hasnt but I just dont know what to think?... I know sex isnt the be all and end all.. however I do enjoy having that closeness... (its been 5 months now... and nothing!)

In the early days of the pregnancy I used to play etc... (oral etc).. however he's just not been interested at all?....

Got to the point where I dont want it now this far in the pregnancy...
Do you think he'll ever want sex with me again!... We've not even been through the birth yet!?
21/04/2007 at 12:52
oh no, now ive worried you! please dont think that there must be something wrong with your relationship...im just very lucky that my fiance is incredibly sensitive to how i feel and does his best to reassure me. perhaps its just that your oh assumes you dont want to have sex, so stays away so as not to pressure you. he might even worry about hurting the baby, i know some men feel put off by the thought of having sex while their child is inside their partners. have you tried speaking to him about it? he might really want sex with you but is concerned about the things i mentioned, so try and talk it through with him so you both understand how the other feels. hope this helps x x x
21/04/2007 at 12:58
Oh.. im sorry..
Its not you who's worried me... Ive been worried about it for some time.
I have spoken to him about it many times before and ive mentioned that it would just be nice if he said he missed the intimacy with me at least!... but he doesnt tend to say anything...(thats what bothers me)...

On a 'keep my chin up note'... im bloody glad someone round here is getting some!...

Listen, its been so nice to speak with you lovely ladies...
Im so dam tired so will take a nap now.
I certainly hope I can chat to you all again. You've already made me feel better, just to have someone to speak to..

Like I say.. I wish I had found this place MUCH EARLIER!...

The only thing I want to ask now is how do you get your picture to show when you post messages?... Ive tried using my profile and dowloaded my 4d scan pic.. but it doesnt seem to show?

Thanks again everyone.. Hope I will see you here again...
Must sleep soon!!..

Take care and thanks

21/04/2007 at 13:12
Please don't worry Pregnant Lady, my oh was very worried that he wouldn't find me attractive when I got bigger and I know to begin with he was worried about sex hurting the baby, but Kimmi is right, you should try talking to him about it. He probably has some very mixed up feelings right now too. I know my oh has had some issues about feeling a bit left out during my pregnancy. He's been very insistent about coming to all the midwife appointments with me and all the scans. I've had a few time where all the hormones have got the better of me, and several times I've ended up crying but not really knowing why, and he gets very frustrated with me. Mostly out of worry that something might be wrong that I'm not telling him. It's such a hugely emotional and life changing time for both of you and I know I've been guilty sometimes of thinking it's all about me because i'm the one growing the baby, but sometimes you have to stop and remember that it took 2 of you to make it, and let him help you sometimes. Men need things explaining and they want to be able to find a solution for everything, so if you just tell him that sometimes you might just be upset for no reason and the best thing he can do to help you is give you a big hug and run you a bath or something, it might be easier for both of you. Good luck hun, there is always someone on here with some friendly words to cheer you up x x
21/04/2007 at 13:14
hi pregnant lady
my OH hasnt paid me any more attention and at first i was paranoi that he had gone off me etc due to weight gain. he finds it weird he says as his baby is in there!!!

i dont think sex is his priority but i have demanded more as i have 13 days to go and it can only help matters!!!!! xxx
21/04/2007 at 13:22
Hi pregnant lady. I just dont want sex and my husband hasn't said anything. When I say sorry for it he understands how uncomfortable I am. I don't think your oh has gone off you.xx
21/04/2007 at 13:27
Hi pregnant lady - please chat when you feel like this - worst thing you can do is be alone with your thoughts. Its true - some men just find it wierd knowing their baby is in there - some at the beginning cos they are scared they will damage baby. My hubbie was the opposite - couldnt get enough at the beginning but now i am 27 weeks and getting bigger by the day he seems to be finding the whole idea a lot more difficult - now its real for him cos he can see it. I miss the closeness too but your oh loves you & your baby more than you know i'm sure. Keep your chin up! Jo x
21/04/2007 at 13:58
Hope you feel better soon. (Kitkat, that kitten is gorgeous)
21/04/2007 at 14:04
Thanks bluey x His name was Gizmo but he wasn't one of the ones we kept. He has a new family with a 3 year old girl to play with and they call him Monty now!
21/04/2007 at 14:09
Hi pregnant lady. Sorry about the way you are feeling at the moment, I can honestly say it won't be forever. There's not many women who don't put weight on during pregnancy and those who don't still have a little baby belly left after the birth so all of us know in one way or another how it feels to look in the mirror and think yuk. You've just got to focus on the little one you will be meeting at the end of it all because they will be there forever whereas any weight won't if u go about it the right way and if it is then so what? I'd happily become the size of whale if it meant having more beautiful children. I think most women who don't have sex very often during pregnancy get over paranoid about it and blame it on the way they look and it's wrong to, you've got to remember your husband married you for who you are and for whatever your future brings so a couple of stone means nothing and i'm sure he appreciates you sacrificing your body for something which will be a part of you both. You've got to realise aswell that some men don't know what to make of the whole pregnancy thing and tend to think they need to step back from you incase they say or do anything you're not going to like, I'm sure if you speak to him he'll reassure you himself.
takecare
xx
21/04/2007 at 15:09
some men arescared they are going to hurt you or the baby thats why they seem to not be interested.not that half of them would admit it.with my first we had sex all the time but with this one not as much, I had a m/c before getting pregnant with this one and he seems to be alot more carefull about everything including sex.Im not to bothered at the moment coz im so uncomfortable all the time.(just go onto ann summers web site and get a huge vibrator that will piss him off and make him think twice)LOL
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