i was exactly the same, it was my first pregnancy and expected the first appointments to be early to check all was ok. i was in for a shock when the receptionist at my doctors said 'i wasn't allowed to see the doctor unless i felt ill and midwife wouldn't concider seeing me till at least 8 weeks'.
To say i was upset was an understatement and it took me time to adjust. looking back now there isn't anything they can do and it does feel surreal for a while, like there isn't really anything there until you see that first scan. A lot of women i've spoken to on here felt the same, but before i knew it bean made sure i knew of his existence.
feeling anxious it totally normal and we all get it to some degree. i would recommend reading only offical guidance and avoid the urge to Goole to check on symptoms etc, i started to do this and it didn't help, only made me feel worse. The ladies on here are fantastic support and have to admit i've been on here every day since 8 weeks.

no question is too daft as we're all thinking it at some point. feel free if you want to email me to chat.
congratulations on getting your BFP and welcome to pregnancy forum .xxxxx