Hi
Just wondering if anyone else is feeling as aggresive and highly strung as I am??
The over whelming feeling of "god I hate everything" is really strong. I have really had enough of being pregnant now. Fed up of: my husband, his family, my family, other people asking questions, walking, going up and down stairs, realising that I am the only one who cleans and cooks to a good enough standard (lol), I'm tired, my tummy is huge and my skin is so tight it hurts, I have external thrombosed piles, very heavy discharge, my boobs ache, Hubby walked out on his job (although I agred it was right to do it has still left me worried)............................ I've just had a gutful.
I'm gaining so much sodding weight, I cant stop biting peoples heads off. My poor hubby cant do anything right. Things I WANT him to do and jobs that need doing get left (my car seat belt broke three weeks ago now, I bought a replacement for him to fit - he told he doesnt have the right tool. That was that! he just tells me to buckle it into the passenger side instead, which means I have to drive with the seat belt cutting into my neck and its awful enough driving as it is! and my car is only 3 door, so my son has to sit in the back and so will baby. Thats gonna be fun with a carseat! doing school runs NOT.
and he just sits on his fat arse whinging he is tired or has a headache. God give me strength I want to punch his lights out!! he makes my skin crawl. i cant bear him touching me, looking at me, bothering me in the bathroom, leaving skidders in the toilet, leaving his clothes on the floor, or on the moses basket, plates on the side etc. I caught him dishing up my dinner last week using a set of prongs i used to put raw meat into the oven. I went mental! he's just so stooooopid most of the time. We sleep in seperate rooms, as I cant bear to share a bed with him, I constantly look at him and think "no" I just dont want him 'that' way anymore, it was dwindling before I was pregnant - maybe now its just over????
It even annoys me that when you in the company of other pregnant women, they BLANK you or act like they hate you, I've been on three tours of birth centres/hospitals in the last few weeks and the frosty reception I have had each time from the other preggos is really weird? its like they dont like anyone else pregnant near them as if it steals their thunder or something? I dont know, but my hubby and mum have noticed it too - how they dont even talk to each other 'how are you, you look nice, when are you due' etc etc, absolutly nothing?? I suppose I expected them to be a little like you girls on here (warm and friendly) but no.
Honestly I feel so bloody annoyed at stuff, I alsmost hope my waters go when I'm home on my own and I can drive myself to the hospital and just sort it out myself. No birth partners, no annoying hubby or mother etc. Everyday I just wish everyone would go out and leave me alone.
This is so wrong. why do I feel like this? :\?
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