Hi,
Not sure if this will be in anayway helpful as I haven't given birth yet but I was diagnosed with Ante-natal depression. I was so down that I decided that after the baby's born I would kill myself as I would be an awful mother and the only reason people wanted me around was to carry this baby and that was it. I hated myself, convinced I was worthless and there was no point to me and I was a waste of space. From my booking in appointment, because I had a history of circumstancial depression, I would be referred to a HV straight away. A few months passed and nothing, my boyfriend and I argued and argued and in my head we split up about 4 or 5 times. Then one day I self harmed - something I had never done before, but it was like a punishment to myself then anything else. I convinced myself that I wanted to die after the baby was born (I wouldn't do it before the birth because I couldn't act like God on my child, who was I to take someone elses life!). The next morning I called the mid-wives at the hospital and adnitted myself, I was now just over 7 months pregnant and the way I acted was the result of a build up of a whole series of events which I just couldn't cope with. I was referred to a mental health team, ante-natal clinics, and finally got a HV to visit and talk to me. But the best thing I think I did was have hypnotherapy. It was recommended to me by my yoga teacher. The person I went to specialises in hypnobirthing but we did a session to change my way of thinking to a more positive one and since doing so I have been doing really well, talking to people and letting it all out has helped as well but I think it's really the hypnotherapy that has done the best work. I feel calmer, more positive about things and more social - not so much in the going out, ladies who lunch type social but I found it hard to just pick up the phone and call my friends, now I might still slightly hesitate but I find it easier to call friends, and maybe even meet up on occassions.
Hypnobirthing has not only helped my confidence but also my relationship, I'm not saying it's going to work for everyone but it's worth looking into alternative therapies rather then whats 'perscribed' to you.
GP x