Hi all

I am new here and this is my first post, truth is, I am really struggling with mixed emotions at the moment and incredible feelings of guilt.

Life was eventually panning out wonderfully, I have three great kids who I love dearly, my son is 22, my daughter is 19 and 18 months ago I had my youngest daughter who has brought so much more into our lives. My two older children live in the UK (I miss them terribly), my husband, myself and dd live in Dubai, not something I relish but my husbands job is here. We recently down sized our accomodation over here and are in the process of buying a small place in the UK so we can visit our family more often, then.......BANG! out of the blue I find I am pregnant again, totally unplanned, totally irresponsible, now one minute I feel overjoyed, the next I am terrified, I will be 42 when this baby is born, why can't I get excited? I feel so bad, with all my other pregnancies, I have felt so happy, has anyone else felt like this? Please, any advice would be welcomed with open arms.
Kaz x

Oh Kaz, you poor thing. I can completely understand your mixed emotions and don't feel guilty, I am sure this is completely normal and can only be expected. Sending you hugs from a grey and windy Blighty xxx

Oh bless you honey. Let me reassure you, I am the same age as you and planned my pregnancy and I have the same up and down feelings! One day I can't wait for the bump to show and am all excited then the next I'm low and thinking what the hell was I thinking? Our daughters are 15 and 6 and totally supportive (if you can be at 6 but you know what I mean!) and dh is so laid back it's not true.
Will having another affect your plans at all? I'm just thinking with one 18months you might still have the expensive stuff like car seats etc. I do believe in things happening for a reason and we just need to find it!
My email button is on if you ever want to let off steam, say things that might sound scary, share the horrors of being an 'elderly' LOL


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Thanks ladies

I am starting to get my head around all this now, I reckon a major factor was the fact I have felt so awful, constant nausea and fatigue, not helped by an 18 month old that doesn't sleep very well and is on the go from 5am every morning...bless her!!

I am now just over ten weeks and beginning to feel a lot better in myself, I had the worst ever birthing experience with my youngest daughter, I gave birth in Abu Dhabi, communication with the doctor was very difficult as her English was poor and my understanding of Arabic is nil! I have now decided that I will fly back to the UK at 30 weeks and have baby there. The other issue is, because abortion is illegal over here, they tend not to do diagnostic testing so now I am worrying myself silly that something might be wrong with the baby and how I would cope, I just wish I could stop stressing out and enjoy the pregnancy!

Thank you so much for listening, K x