Well done on your 12lb weight loss, that is really fab! So you are hopefully really close to getting clomid so that is really positive. I have a bit of weight to lose too, I joined weightwatchers 2 weeks ago and have lost 7 1/2 lbs, I am trying to focus on that too as a bit of a distraction! And then hopefully it will help me too.
I know what you mean about the emotional side of it, I really struggle and have very dark moments. Everything just seems to take so long, and I often get quite bitter at how unfair it seems for all us ladies with problems.
I am only on metfomin to sort out my insulin levels, which has shortened my cycles (as long as it wasn't a fluke last time!) but my doctor won't give me any further fertility help until we have been trying for 2 years, even though I have PCOS. I would love to do it naturally in 2 years if its possible, so I have slowly come round to the docs way of thinking!!