We have been ttc for years and I can't get babies off my mind from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep!!! It's all I think about and to be honest it's driving me alittle insane! I've cleared out my spare room so basically it's empty and I've look on most baby websites and catalogues and know roughly what I'd like to buy. I can't even go out and about without checking out other peoples buggies etc and making a mental note of what they have got so I can google it when I get home!!!
Is anyone else the same or am I going crazy??!?!?! tee hee
I'm so sorry to hear about your mc's I know how heartbreaking they can be, I had one 2 months ago
When I found out we were expecting I dragged my hubby into Babies R Us and mothercare and even though I was only a few weeks I puffed my tummy out with pride (I wasn't even showing!) becasue finally I felt like I belonged in the shop. Now he has banned me from go in there because I get all upset leave about 2 minutes after I have arrived!! I think I might take up gardening as a hobby to take my mind of things!!! lol
The 2ww is horrible isn't it?! I wish you all the luck in the world and hope you get a BFP.
I have to admit I always thought you got pregnant and your only real worry was how it was going to come out!! I never realised how hard it would be and all the things that go through your mind. I was scared to move half the time!
I can't even imagine what your friend must of gone through, I hope she is doing alright.
I was told to calm down and not get carried away but I couldn't help it either there are so many cute things out there. I was good though and didn't buy anything but I know exactly the kind of things I'd like!!
Aww thanks but I've tried loads, I've even had two treatments of IVF. I've just found out I have slighty high NK Cells which might be killing of anything my body feels is "unnatural" Hopefully this is my answer as I started round three of my IVF and using up my last two eggs. I will be on a new course of drugs which fingers crossed might help
I found out yesterday there is still a cyst which was formed after my last ivf so as long as that doesn't get any bigger, I should have the transfer done in about 6-7 weeks roughly so in 8-9 weeks I should know if it's worked our not.
Thats alright, you haven't exactly had it easy either!
You betcha I'll be back in that shop but for now I'll settle with checking out the website and adding to my wish list!! lol Not sure where my endless bucket of money is going to come from but I can dream!! (ha ha only just spotted that smiley face and had to use it!!!)
These few weeks should fly by as I have an appointment or something baby wise going on each week but the 2ww after the transfer are hard!! Like you it's the not knowing that drives me mad. Still I'll get two weeks off work to chill out which will be nice.
I was going to start my new hobby and do the garden today but the weather is rubbish so ironing it is!!!!! Joy
I'll let you know how I get on with the IVF not the ironing!! tee hee
Hello!! How are you??
I can totally relate to how you must of felt, if you read the post dealing with other peoples pregnancy's I have had a good rant about my feelings. I'm alright now though so please don't feel like you can't talk about what your going through, I want to hear all about it!!
Its good that you are feeling different this time. I'm quite skinny too, used to get called worm at school (kids are so mean!! lol) and I felt like I was going to turn into the hulk and start busting out of my clothes. My trousers got so tight around my tummy they kinda hurt!
I had a blood test today and it wasn't good so they won't let me go ahead with the IVF next month I have to have another scan done when my next af arrives and then they will work out whats going on. I am trying to do it naturally this time with out drugs but they might have to put me back on them. Either way I will have this af and possibly two more before I can have the transfer done. I'm not going to let it get me down though, I am just going to garden for the next few months even if it rains!!!! lol
Have a great weekend
DD born June 2010.Baby number two due April 20, 2013
I can understand why you are feeling down but you aren't a failure. Your just going through a really hard time right now and are dealing with alot of emotions. I only got to 7 weeks so I cant even imagine how hard it was for you to get to 12 and 13 weeks. I'm sending you a great big hug and I hope with time it becomes alittle bit easier.
I went wedding dress shopping with a great friend of mine yesterday and we were talking about babies (It's basically all I talk about, even dragged her into babies r us just to torture myself!! lol). She is getting married in March and would like to start trying straight after. I would love her to have a baby around the same time as me but I don't know if I could handle it if she got pregnant before I did. That sounds so selfish and I know I would be so happy for her but inside it would crush me.