Hiya

i dont know where to begin. My eldest is 3 and a half and my baby is 5 months old. I'm just so fed up with day to day routine. i have no help off my parents as they think i am 'ok'. my husband works all day. my eldest goes to nursery every afternoon and i hate the process of getting up, feeding both children then me then trying to play with eldest, then getting my baby off for a nap. then washing, ironing, sterilising bottles, tidying. and all this while my eldest wants me to do voices for his toys! all 3 of us then get ready and have dinner just in time for nursery to start. i get home have my dinner and feed my baby, only then to go back to nursery to pick my son up. then its home, more playing, tidying, preparing tea then hubby gets back. we hardly get chance to hold a conversation. i feel i shout at my eldest for doing minor silly trhings but i really lose it, i have no patience. i then get upset because i love him so much and we used to be so close. I feel I'm taking it out on him because he's there to take it out on. he comes and cuddles me and loves me up like he's the parent! i just feel so run down and emotional. i have a lump in my throat while i'm writing this. i have nothing to be fed up about yet everything is making me fed up. i wouldnt change what i have but i feel my life as been turned upside down again and i thought i'd manage better this time round but i'm not. b4 i know it i will be back at work and i feel i havent seen my baby grow/develope at all. i could babble on all night but wont.

can anyone - help? x

I know exactly how you feel hun, my eldest was 2 in August and my little girl is 5 months. My son doesnt go to nursery but does go to his nans 2 afternoons a week. I can completely empethise with everything that you have said. for the moment i get up, the kids are craving my attention and sometimes i feel like i just want to run away My daughter is an absolute angel and so easy to look after but my son is currently at the terrible 2s and drives me up the wall. My life is a mirror image of yours. Yes my son goes to his nans but its my oh mum and i end up staying there for ages cause i ffel ignorant when i drop him off and then pick him up afetr a couple of hours just incase it causes arguements so dont get any time on my own ( we do pay her for having them) if you ever want to talk my e mail is loganflump@hotmail.co.uk where abouts you from?

Beck

HI - I can see where your coming from too, i have a 12yr old, a 2yr 4month old and a 3 week old baby, and i dont feel like i have time to brush my teeth some days. My hubby is brill but he works silly hours and sometimes out at work for 14hrs at a time but he has to pay the bills. I could ask family to help out but because my baby is so young and i breast feed i cant be bothered with expressing so i dont bother asking for help really. My toddler is not in nursery yet but my 12yr old thinks our life revolves around dropping her off anywhere she wants to go, inbetween dropping her off at school and picking her up again and we only have the 1 car. I'm normally quite organised but not anymore, but i know that it wont last forever and thing will settle down, so i try not to let things get to me but its hard seeing all the washing piling up and the toys all over the floor. I also snap at my other kids and they feel really bad about it, its so hard. I think in time things will get better, but i know exactly what your going through.

Love Nat x

thanks ladies. it helps knowing that i am not on my own. some days are worse than others and i know it will pass. i have to count my blessings that i have two adorable children. it just would be nice to feel me again and not mommy or wife or cleaner........

xx