i havent been on this site much recently, things have gone downhill and im feeling lower than ever. however, i am going to the doctors on tuesday so i hope to get myself on some medication and back into counselling....
the most recent thing im having to deal with is food
i havent eaten properly in 2/3 weeks and ive lost a stone. i feel scared to eat and im worried about myself, i dont want to make myself ill. when i do eat its a binge. today ive eaten 3 crunchies, 3 time out bars, 2 packets of quavers...
i want to stop this but im so fat... im now 11 stone and only 5'4. i feel disgusting.
my oh and i are now separated but we are still sharing a bed, a room....its sickening. i am numb and feel so lost. it feels like someone is playing the same day over and over
i done a homeless assesment and i am being put on the housing priority list but i was told me and sam would have to stay in a hostel for a few weeks. i know this is the only chance ive got but im so scared.
i know whats triggered this but its very private

anyway. i cant wait to get my life back, i just dont know how much longer i can take living like this. not another second

aw hun, i cant imagine how terrible your feeling. You must try to remember that things will get better for you and sam. i really hope things work out for you soon, keep talking to people about it, even if its just on here. your not alone, make the most of any support you have. people on this site can be very supportive and a lot have been through similar experiences.

i have a friend who had to move into a hostel to get accomodation sorted, she said it was no where near as bad as she'd imagined it would be. and she now lives in a lovely home with her daughter...it didnt take long at all

best of luck sweety
xxxxxxx

i went in for an assesment with a psychiatrist on tuesday night and stayed in the hospital
got the doctors on monday and the health visitor is coming out too
im back on anti depressants and i hope things start lookin up
anyway, ive gotta go just now, thanks for ur reply xx

I have been in a hostel and it is honestly not that bad!

Obviously it is not ideal but I was in there with my son who was 5 at the time and it was a bit unsettling for him - it would have been easier with a baby!

The staff in the hostels are brilliant and can give you loads of advice and support and the maximum time is usually about 3 months and then you will have a wonderful home for yourself and your lo!

You seem to be getting loads of help now and I hope you begin to see the beginning of your new life starting very very soon!

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