I've been doing really well. Was depressed after Max was born and it lasted a few months, then things started looking up and I was really happy.
But recently I've started feeling "detached" again, like this is all being played out on a screen and I'm just watching, but not involved. Max is 7 and a half months old and is really happy. He's a little imp and has the cheekiest smile. He's started babbling and sounds so cute, I should be really enjoying him and my life at the moment.

I hate having PND - it just comes out of no where and catches you off guard. There doesn't seem to be anything you can do to stop it, either. I look at other mums with their LOs and have started feeling jealous but I don't know why. I feel quite hostile towards other people. Usually in a supermarket for example, if someone walks slowly in front of me I just walk patiently behind and look at the shelves, but lately I've felt like ramming into the back of them and telling them to get out the f***ing way!
I have no energy and a constant headache. When I get home and the flat is still a mess I feel even worse. But I have no energy to do anything.

I think I should probably go to GP this time.
Sorry for long post, you don't have to reply just feel better now I've got that off my chest xxxxx

This is so close to how I have been and I only recently went to GP nearly 3 weeks ago and Maddie is 11 months.
I have been taking anti d's since seeing her and felt an improvement straight away, more from the fact that I was taking control than the pills working, the last couple of days have been a little bleak but today has been a really up day and it is the first time since Maddie was born that I have felt anywhere near my old self.

Please speak to your GP rather than suffer, I left it so long and could have enjoyed my time with lo so much more, I really feel I have missed out but am now slowly getting back on track and looking forward to my time with my girl.
xx

Also, ask them to do blood tests regarding an under-active thyroid......someone posted regarding this elsewhere. it is quite common after pregnancy and birth and can cause fatigue, listlessness and other stuff that makes u feel down and edgy. it can also be mistaken for pnd sometimes.