I still seem to be suffering bad anxiety when Charlotte cries when going to bed.

I had it bad when she was newborn and for a bit after. After other symptoms appeared I was diagnosed with pnd. Been off pills since the summer and felt reasonably ok.

Most nights when lo put to bed she never cries. I think her 2nd molars are coming thru, and there are some very loud fireworks going off (didn't bother her the last 2 nights though), but for the last hour or so she has screamed the house down. We put her to bed a little early cos she seemed quite tired.

OH & I have been upstairs. She's had Calpol, Teetha, cuddles (which she refused as always). She just wants to come downstairs which we wont do incase it opens a bag of worms!

I haven't felt this anxious though in ages. I couldn't eat my tea which I'd spent the last 2 hours preparing. I went very clammy and felt so sick. I feel like pacing the floors. OH has said to leave her as she will tire herself out. When she was with us upstairs she was also playing and when I mentioned going to bed she pulled a face - she definately is a fully fledged toddler now.

I know others have it bad at night but I think I've been spoilt with her sleeping so well recently, and I hate the fact that these anxious feeling have resurfaced. We are ttc no2 and I'm just concerned I wont cope with the crying at night again, as I know it WILL happen and it might be in stereo!!

Sorry just needed to offload and keep my mind busy whilst she's settling.
xx

oh goodness it must be hard feelign like that again. All I can say is keep an eye on it yourself and if it continues or worsens DO go back to you GP there is no shame in needing some help again!

Well it's quite now so she must have gone to sleep.

I have felt quite good for a while so don't know where these feeling came from. It did scare me though. I will keep an eye on them just in case as I don't want to go to that place again.

The only other thing i can think of with her being like this is that she's behaving a lot more like a toddler. I only have to say no you can't do that or something similar and the bottom lip comes out. She's also started to throw her plastic chair around when angry which is a new one!

Do you think she's starting to really test the boundaries now? She will be 2 in just over 2 months so I can only assume the terrible 2's are looming........

hmmmm sounds familiar - a month exactly till max's 2nd Birthday - he is a right chucker at the mo and I am sick of it! It is hard work - we are also ttc no 2 and I do worry about coping with 2 but there again even if we fall now it is another 9 months away!!

Hun, I'm sorry you're finding it so stressful, it is very horrible when they won't sleep. Just rest assured that you have done all the right things and she is safe and sound. She is just being a typical toddler and pushing the boundaries.

Try and take some deep breaths and remind yourself that she is fine, it's just a toddler tantrum about going to bed and she won't be harmed by what you doing.

If it is any consolation, when I had my first he went through a phase like this at around 1, and I was doing cc. I felt so guilty and agitated about it, that I couldn't let myself go downstairs and watch tv while he was crying - I didn't feel I deserved to! Instead, I would just sit outside his room and suffer lol!

Can I also add that you will most probably find things are so different when no. 2 comes along. I found everything so much easier with no.2 as we had been through it all before. You know what to expect second time round!

Don't know if all this waffle helps at all, but hope you feel better soon.

Mx