....at 9am so im sitting here waiting trying to hold in a pee waiting for hubby to come back from walking our dog so we can leave as its a different EPU to last time (so i will hopefully have a completely different expereince to last time) its basically a satelitte clinic of the main hospital i went to last time which is the maternity one where i will delivery but is about 15 minutes further away so i have no ideas what to expect as least the midwives etc were nice the last time but i have just over an hour to wait and see....

I am just praying i see a baby measuring correct size with a heartbeat at the correct rate (i think lst time bean maybe had a slower heartbeat than they would have liked and rather than worry us when it might have all been ok just said to rescan us 2 weeks later - just a theory as Poppet died 4 or 5 days after that scan - im going to ask my doctor about this today and see if he has any info) so fingers crossed but im petrified - i havent been sick since Wednesday and feel ok this morning apart from hungry but i cant eat although i did have a bit of that wretching again - my boobs also arent that sore which was my main sign last time even when i squeeze them at the sides so im convinced Pumpkin has gone and im scared to go as right now in a naive little bubble which may be about to be burst......i had read symptoms fluctuate a little and lots of girls have said their boobies lost some of the sensitivity but im so scared im just hoping for the best...

Its early days (7+6 hopefully by lmp) but a heartbeat today measuring correct takes us 4 days past last point of mmc which was hurdle 1 and while i know there are no guarantees in that 2ww after last time its just breaking down the wait til the 12 week scan i suppose in manageable chuncks and small steps to overcome each time - i know if somethng is going to go wrong again it will (touch wood) but this will help bring my PMA back up - im glad i moved it forward by 2 weeks as if something is wrong i would rather know sooner but hopefully all will be fine and its just that my symptoms have been disguised by the knot in my stomache which is 95% fear at being told once again i have had a mmc and 5% excitement at seeing my baby due to the little PMA i have left in me.....

I have had a much better feeling this time from the start that everything will be ok but it might just be wishful thinking as i know i cant trust my body (i have on my miscarriage rememberance bracelet that my hubby bought me and i wore when i had my medical management as i believe Poppet is witrh me and looking out for this little bean as i got my BFP after 7 months and a week before my edd as if they were saying it was ok to be pregnant again) i have a doctors appointment at 10.45am as i havent even told them yet as i couldnt get an appointment last week and have been too scared so hopefully i will be going to arrange my booking in rather than for a sick line for work...

ARGH sorry i am waffling now but hubbys back so i better go.....please keep your fingers crossed for me!

If im not about later you know why......

Laura xxx

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Good luck! I know how nervous you must be feeling - hope to see a good news post soon.

((Hugs)) Mx

hey hun i've got everything crossed for you!

i know exactly what your goin through as i've had 2 MC and a molar preg and i too have an early scan booked for 10am today so i'm stupidly nervous too. its only normal tho hun after our past experiences.

good luck hope it all goes well. thinking of you.

xx

Good luck - will be thinking of you! x

hanks girls....im back ALREADY lol! We got there 10 minutes early and didnt wait long and we had a lovely midwife and were out by 10 past 9!

Basically she said my bladder wasnt very full (i have a very sensitive bladder as have had numerous tests and medication and nothing works so what feels like bursting to me is actually a tiny bit of wee) and bearing in mind im not the skiniest girl she said the picture wasnt as clear as it could be so she had to wiggle around alot but straight away she said 'theres a definite pregnancy and a little heartbeat' i thought after she said a definite pregnancy there was a 'but' coming and i was scared i was scared i night need an internal and that it looked bad but she managed to get a clear picture (which she gave us) and measurements and said my baby is measuring just over 8 weeks but couldnt give me an exact measurement due to it being early days and my bladder not being full but she said the heartbeat is exactly as it should be and nice and strong (we could see it on the screen) and that its exactly as she would expect (and hope) to see for 8 weeks which i will be tomorrow!!!

I am sooo soo pleased! We have made it past hurdle 1 point of last mmc (7+2) and she said i have a much more decreased risk of mc now but obviously there are no guarantees but that everything looks really good for now - thank god! I burst into tears and hubbys eyes filled up - espec as things were much clearer than they were with Poppet - we can make out the head and its a more clearer shape still doesnt look like a baby obviously but its getting there! My PMA is back....

She said would i like a scan again in 2 weeks just to check the growth etc as she realised how nervous i was so i have another one at 9 o'clock in a fortnight (my oringinal appointment which i hope isnt a bad omen) she said it was up to me (rather than last time when we were told to come back in 2 weeks as its early days)

I know i could go in 2 weeks time and be told bad news (same way it could be good but bad at 12 week scan as sadly there are no guarantees) but right now i am 8 weeks pregnant and have made it this far and my little bean's heart is beating away! So im going to have no neagative thoughts for the next 2 weeks (next week is busy at work again so will hopefully go quite quick again then its just a week to go) by then i will only have 2/3 weeks wait til my dating scan - nice manageable hurdles to cross is all is well!

Thanks for the well wishes and for keeping my positivity up!

I just hope this bean is super super sticky and makes it all the way to June!

A Very relived Laura (& hubby) xxxx

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

That is fantastic news and I am sooo happy for you! yey!!

And it's great that you have another scan in 2 weeks time

I will be keeping my fingers crossed that everything continues to go well.

Stay positive and every time you feel doubt creeping in just think of your little bean and that amazing heart beating away on the screen!

Love NN 30+2 xxx

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Fantastic news, Im so glad they have looked after you, and you can have another scan in 2 weeks time. Seeing a nice strong heartbeat is a great sign.
Try and relax for the rest of the day.
Love Koala X X

Yey! So glad it went well and all is looking really positive! x

That's BRILLIANT news!

Love Gecko 11+2 x

fantastic news lovey! xx

Thanks girls im still in shock to be honest...

Pumpkin is measuring 1.8cm which seems to be right on track for 8ish weeks which is made me feel better again and i just hope all continues to be well...

I have my first appointment with the midwife on Thuirsday morning (only told docs about pregnancy after the scan) its just to take bloods and blood pressure etc but its the midwives that arrange the scans so least i am on the right track - i know theres a chance i may see them and then not need a 12 week scan but im determined to keep my PMA up and i WILL!!!! Anyway it will break up the wait a little until my next scan...

I just keep looking at my picture and thinking how amazing it is that this little thing is growing inside me (in the right place thank god!) with a good strong heartbeat and i cant feel it - well apart from the sickness lol! She said try to relax as everything looked really good (obviously she told me theres still a risk which i know) but at this stage it really was the best result we could have hoped for and is even better than i was hoping as im technically a few days ahead - which i know doesnt mean anything by how my afs were and also the fact that its so early and inaccurate but at this stage im taking it as a positive!

Im now further on than last time and its beginning to look like a baby now so im just keeping my fingers crossed and my PMA up (even when my boobies dont hurt) and hopefully the next few weeks will fly in...least i have some christmas shopping and a busy few weeks to think on in the meantime!

I know i keep saying it but i am soooo pleased!!!

Laura xxx

Whoop!!!!! Congratulations!! That's such wonderful news Laura, am so so pleased for you honey!! I've had a few scans now and my favourite was still my first, seeing the heartbeat for the first time - just so amazing!!! Have a fantastic weekend lovely,

Love Kristen xxxxxxx
18+1

Laura I'm over the moon for you. Stay positive and don't read too much into what symptoms you have or haven't got because you'll drive yourself around the bend.

Oh, and by the way, looks like I'm going to be you bump buddy after all - I got my BFP this morning, WOO HOO. We can do this Laura, x

Laura I'm over the moon for you. Stay positive and don't read too much into what symptoms you have or haven't got because you'll drive yourself around the bend.

Oh, and by the way, looks like I'm going to be you bump buddy after all - I got my BFP this morning, WOO HOO. We can do this Laura, x

Laura that is excellent news. I am soooo pleased for you! Keep that PMA up and keep us updated.

xxSara

Hi Laura, so pleased, that all sounds positive news. My scan went well on Thursday, baby measuring 6w 3d, so nervous still but having no bad signs or spotting. Lots of nausea and sore boobs, never had that before. Next scan for me is 25th, 2 and half weeks to go so need to keep busy with other things and xmas shopping.

Keep your positive head on, you will be fine.

Keep in touch
Sam xx

Thanks girls...my next scan is on 20th and it was my original appointment which i then changed to yesterday after the brief spotting episodes which i am now worrying (yes worrying again after the relief of yesterday as i cant help myself) that it will be a bad omen as if its bad news then if i wouldnt have moved the scan i wouldnt have been any wiser yesterday,,argh!

Its so scary and i know i have to try and just relax as what will be will be but now im just worried in 2 weeks it will be like last time all over again! Hubby is getting annoyed with me now i think....i am trying to be positibe (still not being sick too much but i was twice yesterday andf my boobs arent that sore but i dont suppose any of that matters as everything looked well yesterday, good heartbeat at rate it should be and no abnormalities and by that i mean last time when they told me at 9 weeks my baby was measuring just over 7 they said the sack was an odd shape) anyway i kow what will be will be but im so excited and happy one minute and then paranoid the next and im also worried its too early to see midwife but they are who arranges 12/13 week scan but maybe its tempting fate on Thursday as i may not need that scan?

Argh scrap that this little bean (who is going to be super sticky and healthy and grown into my son is going to be nice and strong and perfect when we meet him in June! Convinced its a boy but a girl would be a nice surprise...long as i get to meet my baby i dont car what they are!) Then i think all could be well in 2 weeksbut not at 13 or 20 or whenever so all i can do is take it small steps at a time but after mmc its so hard and im wishing time away all the time....

Anyway thanks girls when i look at my picture i can see the beginnings of a baby (make out head and what looks like arm buds etc considering scan wasnt as clear as it could be and from what i can see at 8 weeks baby shpuld measure about 1.7cm so im slightly agead and thats all good - RIGHT?!

Sorry im waffling now but its going to be a long 2 weeks and an even longer 32.....

Laura xx

P.s Good Luck Sam and Congrats Lynne!

Hi Laura

So pleased it went well, what a fantastic feeling it must have been seeing the heart beating away.

Mx

That's great news, hope the next 2 weeks go quickly. xx

31+3

thats wonderful news hun,

keep well

em
32+1

I cant believe this was 12 weeks ago...

Im so scared for Friday my symptoms apart from slightly sore boobies have almost completely disappeared this week i was sick on Friday then a tiny bit yesterday and that was it...

Because i expect early scans espec 2nd early 1s to end im mmc im so worried about Friday that they are going to tell me once again my body has tricked me and that my baby has gone...obviously im praying they wont but im trying to prepare myslef for the worst though not that you can...

part of me doesnt want to go as at least this way i can live in a 'bubble' where everythign is still ok until im told otherwise....roll on Friday morning!

Please Please let everything be ok this time!

Laura xx