Hi Girls,

Well so far ive resisted, and infact so certain am i af is on its way im not going to test tomorrow either. For the first time ever i think i have totally lost pma to the point i can not bear to see another empty white box on a hpt. I know af is on its way, just feels like it this afternoon, if by some miracle af not here by tuesday i will test then, but wouldnt be surprised if i have a stupid 34 day cycel or somthing just to mess with my head!
Thanks for all being so supportive, when really its quite trival i suppose.

I really do appreciate it girls.

Luv ya all

Gem x

Its not trival honey dont undervalue how big this all is!
Massive hugs
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Aww Gem dont appologise for feeling down, this TTC lark is so mentaly & emotionaly draining it does get to the most upbeat of us at sometime.
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Take care hun xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Definately, like the girls just said, no need to apologise. Let yourself feel however you need to, we are all here for you no matter what.
i really hope she doesnt show up tomorrow, or the next few days (months!!) for that matter.

Big hugs to you my love
xx

Hey Gem, hang in there sweetie. It's so hard to keep up the PMA, espec when you feel *exactly* like AF is coming.....it's not over yet though. Really hoping you're feeling so low because of all the pg hormones flying about in yoru body!!! And, it is not trivial sweetie....for me it is one of the most important and stressful experiences of my life, so I feel that pain every time AF arrives. Big hugs and thinkingt of you xx

Thanks again girls,

I absolutely love this forum. Well i went out last night, had a great night with the girls, x factor and sat around chating with loads of yummie food. Infact time flew and we didnt realise we were chatting until 2am! Oops! Anyway,when i realised of course i ran straight to the loo expecting af to be there at midnight, but nothing..

so home to bed.. up at 7 this morning again straight to the loo... nothing yet, although im on half hourly knicker watch!

I think Sim must have done some Jedi mind trick on me, (or reverse psychology) as since she gave me permisson to test today, i'm not going to! I just cant bear to see another bfn, there is something so upseting about testing bfn, only for af to arrive within the hour!

So, no real symp's to report, only for the past 3/4 days i have been scoffing for england. (even more so than normal) ive been having my usual man size portions then, pud, then choc, then sweets, then toast.. you get the idea! I will be mortified if bfn arrives i will have just admitted im a pig. The only other thing is last night whislt getting ready i stepped out of the shower and immediatly felt like i wanted to puke, (just for a second) today i feel gassy and burpy , Ive convienced myself im inducing my own symptoms! I am offically going mental!

Whats the bet Af will be late and put me through hell..

God, i would give anything to be able to post a happy ending to this thread. Thanks again for all your buckets of support.

I'll post again later...

Have a lovely day everyone, any one having a yummie roast (lol, omg, just realised im back on the food!)

Hugs

Gem x

Oh im keeping everything crossed for you gem, iv got a big stick ready to wave/prod/bash the witch off.

Im cooking a yummy roast today :)

Hey there! Hang in there girl.. my baby was due 2nd Nov and I too am almost 1 week overdue!! I have tried almost everything. Will go for a long walk later and maybe just maybe it could start the process naturally! I don't want to be induced on Wednesday!! Good luck with your birth Xxxx

Thanks, but i wish i was waiting for something as exciting as labour... just waiting for my period to arrive

Oh dear, girls, makes us tttc'ers look a bit mad!

Looby, im jealous of your roast.. i might go and do a fry up

Speak to you all later..

Gem x

Ooops, the post above was obviously not meant for here! Or she didnt quite realise.

So far so good Gem... glad my super Jedi powers are working!! Keep it up girl. Stretch it out as long as you can.

I know you already have a truck load of sticky baby dust but I hope you have room for another truck load that is on its way!! So clear out some space chic.

BTW, I burnt AF on the bonfire last night so she should be kept away for a while girls!!

xx

Oh great, thanks sim, i was wondering where that witch had got too... 2.45, and still no sign of her, but few af type niggles/ acheyness so maybe she's just held up watching some fireworks.

So then, do i test in the monring? if i do, then i have to go and buy a test today, but if not, it will be much easier to ride it out to Tuesday which im inclined to do.

Oh, why after 3 months of 31 days cycles has my body done this? Hopefully for the right reasons eh?

Gem x

OK, I would say if you had a test then do it in the morning... (due to your good behaviour ) but since you don't have one in the house WAIT til Tues and pick one up tomorrow! What's one more day afterall? You can do it!

I waited til she was completely burnt out and saw her ashes. Surely she won't rise from them!!

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Oh hun I so so hope this is it for you xx what ever you decide with testing good luck and keep us posted and if it is bfp I am already praying it is a comfy sticky one for you xxx

Ooh hon, if you haven't got one I'd wait. Curl up on the sofa with a good film before you get tempted to go out in the cold and dark to get one! You will know for sure then that the result is right. Loads of luck and hope AF stays away tonight xx

Not to rub it in gem but the roast was yummy!
Any sign of the witch yet? I beat her off earlier for you hehe

Gem - I salute your self control!!! Have my fingers crossed for you, and will be looking out for your update.

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I came on to see your update. Fingers tightly crossed for you Gem!!!! xxxx

Well girls, im sorry to say I am NOT pregnant . I caved last night and got hubby to collect me a hpt, first response.

Last night i started to hope and that is a horrible feeling, i really didnt want to get me hopes up. So tested today with FMU and a first response and and got a brillient white space where there should have been a line!

My body is just finding new ways to be cruel, i have had 30 day cycle for 3 months now..

Thank you all again for your support, you have been brillient. I don't know how i would have got through it without you.

Gem xx

Oh hun, I am so so so sorry. I hope you are having an "you" day today and look after yourself. xxxx

Oh god, how crap. This is just so hard isnt it?

Hope you're ok hun xxx