Hey ladies....

Well ive got my HSG on Thursday and for the past few days... ive been so worked up about it and struggling to sleep at night!! :(

I know that it does need done in my quest for a BFP.... but im jus not ready to hear bad news! :(

Im only 22 and would be absolutely devasted if i got told that my tubes were blocked etc.....

We havent told anyone that we are TTC.... well OH has told a close friend, but i just dont feel like i can tell my friends yet.
I lost my Mum last year, so dont have that support either.

This is the only place i can really come for support!

Glad ive got that off my chest.... right now in search of some PMA!!

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Try not to work yourself up about it hon. The stress from the anxiety over thinking "what ifs" isnt good for you, nor is it necessary. Just because you are getting checks it doesnt necessarily mean the results will bring bad news for you. The results may well come back to say there is nothing at all wrong.
IF there an indication of any problems then they wont just send you away with "youre doomed, off you go..". You will be able to make a plan of how to deal with it and they will help you do that.

I know its the not knowing just yet, and this can be stressful in itself. I used to be a person who would think the worst for a lot of things, so that I prepared myself for the worst happening and thought its a bonus if something better actually happened. But I finally realised that I needed to be more of an optimist as the pessimism was causing me a lot of unnecessary anxiety at times.

Im sorry to hear you lost your mum last year. That must have been really sad at 21. Do you have a sister or an aunt you could talk to? Dont feel afraid to confide in a close girlfriend either, you have nothing to be ashamed of. And of course there is always here where you can come and offload and get a lot of good support.

Good luck for Thursday x

Aww thank you sim75...

its good to just hear some positive thoughts from someone else....
OH is really trying to help... but i think most of the time he just doesnt know what to say to me!! (annoying on both sides)

I dont have a sister or a close aunt that i could talk to.... just brothers etc, I live in a mans world! lol (4 closest people to me are Dad, 2 brothers and OH)

I feel that it may be time to tell my closest friend, although she is very understanding etc... i just feel that she might not get me... if that makes sense?? ha.....
Shes 23, single... wouldnt even dream of kids until shes at least in her 30's...

But hey i cant go on bottling all of this up.....

Thanx for taking the time to get back to me! :)

xx

Hey cupcake honey...I can totally relate to how you're feeling. I was terrified about my hycosy, especially as I had chlamydia briefly when I was younger. I was so sure it would be bad news, and, like you, didn't think I could cope with that and hadn't told anyone we were TTC. Luckily all was ok, and I'm sure yours will be too. It seems fairly rare for there to be problems with the tubes and when there are problems it is generally just one tube. There are ops they can do to try to clear them and there are always other options if the worst comes to the worst (e.g., IVF). But that's all thinking WAY AHEAD....I think, where possible it's good to take things one step at a time. Each step you take is a step closer to your BFP.

I think it sounds like a good idea to talk to your close friend, if you feel ready. I still haven't told anyone but do regret that sometimes as I do feel very alone. The ladies are on here are amazing, but it's not the same as a physical hug or phoning someone who knows you really well. If you can't face telling a friend, maybe you could consider counselling? I am getting some privately but you can often get it through fertility clinic as well.

Take care hon and loads of luck for Thursday xxx

Cupcake I hope everything goes well on Thursday! I really think that you need to tell someone just so that you have someone to talk to other than your OH. I am a very private person and never really let anybody know my personal problems - however I told a friend of mine last week that we have been ttc and she has been amazing. It is nice to know that I can talk to her when I need to! Organise an evening out with just your friend and tell her. Good luck sweetie!

I understand too, I haven't even plucked up the courage to have my bloods done yet, every month I just convince myself I will do it next month because I will be wasting NHS time and money of I do get pg. Hope it goes well. No one knows about us either not even my mum or sister and I have to admit I am starting to feel the pressure xxx

Hey there, just a quick one to let you know that i had my hsg about 2 weeks ago and it wasn't anywhere near as bad as i thought it would be (despite the 31/2 hr wait cos the bloody machine broke!!!) It was a little uncomfortable and i got small amount of spotting but other than that not too bad. I'm sure you will be fine and you will get an all clear and like you said it's the next step for that elusive BFP. Good luvk hun and will be thinking of you xxx

Thanx so much ladies for all your words of support!!

My friend was round last night and she knew i had the hosp this week, but i never really went into detail before about it... but i did kinda open up a bit last night, i just explained to her that we are getting checks done etc, she was very understanding and im glad i did tell her!.... at least sumone on my wavelength knows now and not jus OH who thinks i have nothing to worry about!!.... I wish i was a man sumtimes!! haha

Yeah i was going over all the possibilities last night and if there is a problem with my tubes, with me being 22... HOPEFULLY theres something that can be done, instead of me waiting until i was in my 30's... 10 years down the line and it be harder!....

Im jus soo glad im getting all these checks done now!

I think whats scaring me the most about the HSG....They will tell me there and then if there is anything wrong!!
In a way thats a good thing, at least i dont have to wait!... but its very nerve racking!!

I know im not the first person to go through this and im certainly not going to be the last.....

I just need to pick myself up and get thru this week!

Thanx everyone xxxxx

Understandably ur bound to be nervous about having the HSG, despite reading other peoples experiances its still unknown to you and how it will feel for u.

I had mine done when i was 23 and i unfortunatly did get the worse possible news that both my tubes were blocked (not meaning to scare you), i was absaloutly devastated and thought thats it no more kids we're done there's no hope!!

How wrong was i!!

I went and saw the consultant a few weeks later who put together the "plan of action" and 4 months later i was in hospital having a lap and tubo plasty to clear the least damaged tube and now i'm pregnant with twins!

What i'm trying to say is even if you do get the worst news (I'm sure u wont) it doesn't mean its all over there's still help available!

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Thank u lilac for replying....

I really love hearing miracle stories like your own, thats absolutely fantastic news... (obv not about ure tubes)... When are u due now??

Do u know the possible reason for tubes being blocked?? So did the lap and tubo plasty clear one of ure tubes??
did u fall naturally??

Sorry for all the questions, i just want to get things clear in my head!

You ladies are a god send!!

xx

cupcake, i totally know where your coming from, i have my Lap and Dye date now for the 15th December and i am so worried... not about the proceedure at all but about the news i may get, but after reading what people have put i think its best to not get so worked up about it, and try and stay as positive as possible, as Liliac has just stated she did get bad news but still is preg with twins.
Im more worried due to the fact my ex gave me clymidia (sp) a few years ago now, and the thought of the reason if i cant have any more childern is down to him makes me feel sick.
Im sure you will be OK hun and lets work on that PMA together! xx

cupcake, i totally know where your coming from, i have my Lap and Dye date now for the 15th December and i am so worried... not about the proceedure at all but about the news i may get, but after reading what people have put i think its best to not get so worked up about it, and try and stay as positive as possible, as Liliac has just stated she did get bad news but still is preg with twins.
Im more worried due to the fact my ex gave me clymidia (sp) a few years ago now, and the thought of the reason if i cant have any more childern is down to him makes me feel sick.
Im sure you will be OK hun and lets work on that PMA together! xx

hales sounds like a good idea to me!!

PMA searching jus now ..............

I know i should be thinking positive... but im just finding it so hard to do!
Im normally such a positive person and this is killing me!! lol

Good Luck for Dec 15th..... I will let you know how Thursday goes for me!...

Have u had 21 day bloods checked?... has ure OH been checked?.... How long have u been trying??

xxx

I haven't had 21 day bloods as that would be a bit hard for me, you see i also have PCOS, and up til only couple of months ago i was having 172 day cycle, and before that was 77, i take Angus cactus now and got them down to 42 days, but i have had blood tests about 3 now.

My OH had his SA and got the results when i saw gyne couple weeks ago, the count was good his had slightly low motility 40% but not bad she said, just would like it to be 50% (he got to do another one on 9th December), have been trying just over the year now (but i had a bit of a blip in june july as i had pre cancerous cells so had to stop for a bit but had op to remove them - been an eventful year to say the least lol ), but that is with only 4 cycles, i am currently on CD13 i think, i do chart and do OPKS too, but i have been slacking a bit, as the PMA has took a nose dive but im hoping with you lovely ladies to get it back up again, xx
Good luck for Thursday hun PMA PMA PMA XXX

[Modified by: hales0403 on November 02, 2009 01:10 PM]

I don't mind the questions its only natural when ur preparing urself.

I'm due the 1st January but will be having the twins around 37 weeks if we can hang on that long.

I was given several reasons for the tubes being blocked, the main two were: scaring to my tubes due to trauma (i'd had a car accident that resulted in impact to my pelvic area) and endo.

They did only manage to clear one tube which was the had less scarring and i believe the blockage was nearer an end of a tube???

I still didn't fall naturally as i have PCOS (they did some cyst drilling while i was under too) but with a little help from clomid i fell on my second month.

Lilac* 31+3 twin bump
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Sending you lots of postive thoughts cupcake and hoping you get good news from your hsg. I haven't had to have one so can only imagine what you must be thinking and feeling - just hope it goes well for you and you get an all clear . Is there someone going with you to wait and keep you occupied?

I am only 23 and know what you mean about having friends who wouldn't understand about wanting kids yet etc. My one piece of advice is you sound too smart for your own good - keep off google it has loads of worst case scenarios!

hales : thats good news about OH's SA..... my OH has still not phoned to make his appointment to hand his in!!... Ive been nagging for weeks... would phone myself, but im never sure the best time for him!! Grrrr
regarding the pre-cancerous cells, at least you got them dealt with, even if it did mean putting off TTC for a few months.

Lilac : thank you for answering all my questions, i guess hearing them from you guys on here is better for my mind than googling lol......
There have been soo many clomid success stories, thats fab news!! :)
Not long to go now chick!!!

LizzieJ : Thanx for your words of support.... its good to see people around my age here...How long have you been trying for??
Yeah my OH is coming with me on Thursday... I went myself to my first Gynae appointment... which i didnt mind at all, there was less pressure!!

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Hi cupcake.....

Oh your HSG has come round quick,good luck sweets you'll be fine really x x
Good advice from everyone here and what great news for lilac that's so promising,hope you get on ok x
Agree with Lizzie J....... don't google,i made that mistake with follicle tracking and it just makes you jittery and that's not what you need!!

PMA for you cupcake..... remember that this is just another step towards your BFP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you so much Glenns*Angel....

Hows things with you??

Yeah im feeling a bit better this afternoon about it all.. than i have done oveer the past few days... long it may continue! ha....

xx

Nag your OH some more cupcake! - Maybe not lol but seriously the results take 2 weeks to come back and and a further month if you need to have in depth analysis done (well thats the case around here!). Maybe remind him that your wait for a bfp will be less if he can get this done now as most clinics wont do anything til tests are all back.

We have been trying for 26 months but we had to wait for treatment to start as the NHS wont treat anyone under 23, have you been told this? OH is nearly two years older so he got his tests done without problems.

Maybe your OH coming along will spur him into taking some action himself? I find my OH always makes more effort when he is reminded how much I have been doing, men . Hope he is helpful and provides you with some comfort and support on thursday.

Whats your OH like about ttc? My OH was very it will happen, no need to worry it might just take a while but now he has realised just how much he wants a family and how he thought it would have happened alot sooner and has been alot more interested in what are options are which is nice.

Hmm waffled on there! xx

More posts! I need to learn to type faster or is there a trick where you see other posts while you type a reply (never used forums before). I might need you to remind me of my advice about google though! Glad your feeling better cupcake .

[Modified by: Lizzie J on November 02, 2009 04:35 PM]

u certainly never waffled on LizzieJ lol

OH was also of the opinion that it would happen and that sometimes it does take time etc.. then when i finally did pluck the courage up to go the docs... OH said you should have went ages ago!! aRgggghhh Men eh?? haha

Im 22 and OH is 27.... Ive not been told anything about waiting on treatment until im 23, which is early next year anyway! .... Im more worried about if we need to go on the waiting list for IVF... as im sure for my area its 29!!

What did u have to wait on starting??
What area are you in??

I seem to be OV every month anyway.... Im just worried that my tubes are blocked!! :$... anyway i shouldnt be thinking like this!! PMA PMA PMA

xx