Sorry girls to post and not to reply much to others, but having a difficult couple of days. Looooong story but upshot is we were booked in for first IVF appointment on Monday, had huge hassle with trying to get drugs delivered because clinic forgot to fax the prescription so spent yesterday desperately trying to find someone who could receive the drugs tomorrow. Reason we couldn't was that we're going to a wedding tomorrow and I'm doing a reading so we have to be on the road. Then my body let me down one more time and AF arrived yesterday, 2 days early, first ever 26 day cycle.

It means we've got to go to our appointment tomorrow instead, we'll be late to the wedding so I've had to let the bride down and can't do the reading, throughout the cycle all dates will be worse for work and mean OH and I have to let people down, so I've been stressing all day to try and sort everything out and I'm now so worried about my FSH test tomorrow, which was too high on the last test and if it is tomorrow the cycle will be abandoned and our treatment at that clinic might be halted all together if it's too high. Have been blubbing this afternoon about letting everyone down, but I think it's as much that I feel as if my body is letting me down and has been for two years. So sorry to go on, I know how lucky we are to be at this stage, I just feel so scared and tired and rubbish about everything. No need to reply but please do cross your fingers for us for our blood test tomorrow. Lots of love to you all.

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me bill and ben have evrything crossed for you xxxx

Oh Daisy Girl....don't feel bad or stress. Sometimes we have unfortunate decisions to make and whatever way you turn is going to upset someone. Am sure the Bride will understand....this ivf is so important and it must come first, so try not to stress and feel bad. You need to put yourself first. It is really not good for your body stressing too much.
I also have moments of feeling that my body is letting me down too....the more I want it the further away it seems....but then I remember that it will happen when the timeis right...I think I would crack up if I didn't. But I am a great believer in timing....things happen for a reason and when they are meant to.
So try not to worry, easier said than done I know....but try and chill out tonight and spoil yourself. Have a lovely soak in the bath (works for me every time) or catch up with that dvd you've been meaning to watch but haven't had time.
I hope and pray that your blood test is ok tomorrow. Really thinking of you. Sorry I've gone on. Please take care. Sending you a very big hug xxxxxx

Oh sweetheart I think a 'little wobble' is very understandable. Sending you an enormous hug and everything is crossed for your blood test.
Helen.xxx

OK DG - this is it, take deep breaths and relax:

Letting people down? _ not convenient but not the end of the world this wee baby will be your world others will understand eventually if they do not know what is going on at the moment

Earlier cycle = earlier pregnancy = earlier baby a whole 2 days sooner.

Joking aside chick I know how much you have been waiting for this and emotions are bound to be high, you are more than entitled to feel this way, remember that FSH levels change in tests and are not set in stone, as others have said easier said than done but try to relax, tomorrow you will be on the official route to getting your wee baby and really deserve it.

I have been thinking about you a lot recently and am hoping this will be it, things happen for a reason and you af came early for a reason you may never know what it was it could be that the post would have gone on strike in the the next day and no drugs for you or a power failure at a later appointment or something (extreme I know but you know what I'm like) this is it, this is the time for you and it is meant for you.

Enjoy the wedding and we'll be thinking of you , love yo so much chick

Oh DG - life is serving you some curve balls today! But Moonbeam speaks the truth - You aren't letting anyone down.

I really hope the appointment goes well. And afterwards you can go off to the wedding, and be around happy, glowing people and (perhaps?) take your mind off TTC for a while. Some champagne and cake will do you no harm whatsoever.

Have a nice relaxing evening so you are calm and rested for tomorrow.

Good luck and we'll be thinking of you.

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Girls, you are wonderful. What would I do without you?! To quote Moonbeam - how a bunch of girls I've never clapped eyes on can help me quite so much I honestly don't know, but you have. You're all so right, I'm going to just focus on the positives and try not to stress.

Unfortunatley we can't relax tonight as we live a long way from our clinic, so we're going to travel to my parents tonight, stay there and then go to the wedding from there. The bride has been amazing, so understanding. In fact she sent me such a lovely text today that it made me cry - you know how it is! A lady at the hotel we're staying at tomorrow night was so lovely about putting our drugs in the fridge tomorrow night, she made me cry too. I'm seeing a pattern here - think I'm just a bit unhinged today!

Well, I must sign off. Got to pack and get on the road. Thank you so much for your replies and good wishes, you ladies really are wonderful. So nervous about the FSH test tomorrow, but I guess there's nothing I can do, so just got to wait and see. Will be back on on Saturday, hopefully with good news.

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good luck hun xxxxx

thinking of you today and hope all is going well for you chick have evrything crossed for you enjoy the wedding xxxx

Hope everything went well yesterday and u've got everything u need to start ur final journey to become a mum!!

love lilac*
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how did it go Daisy

Hope all went well for you yesterday daisy, fingers crossed for you xx

Hey DG don't feel blue try to think about number 1 now.

With the wedding and everything you probably feel like you are being selfish but you have to focus on putting everything to do with IVF first now. As we all know you have to go with your body when you can and if you delay things you end up waiting for another long month.

Everyone will understand and you'll know it was worth all the hassle when you are able to celebrate their first wedding aniversary with a mini DG bouncing on your knee.

Love, hugs and support as always darling xxx