Hi everyone,

I'm 10DPO and have suddenly started wondering if I'm ready to ttc again (I had my mc in May). I think it is just because I'm thinking that we could have actually done it this month and it scares me a bit and I feel in a way I am trying to replace the baby I lost. Having written that I realise it does sound a bit silly, maybe it is just PMS making me feel a bit sorry for myself.

Thanks for reading,

[Modified by: Angela+James on 07 July 2009 21:20:48 ]

Hi Angela
I found it very scary to start TTC again partly in case things go wrong again and getting back onto the emotional rollercoaster but time does help and it feels right now and exciting, I don;t think you are trying to replace your lost pregnancy but I guess only you and your dh know when it feels right
enjoy the BDing anyway!
Daisyx

Hi honey,

Poor you, it doesn't sound at all silly. TTC is a scary business, as well as being exciting, life changing and all those other things. TTC after a mc/mmc/ectopic is a thousand times more scary as we are all so aware of what can go wrong and the heartache that goes with that.

I can't even think that I might stand a chance of getting pg again at the moment, but I know that if I am lucky enough to get another BFP (and I got my last BFP on my second cycle after coming off the pill, so hopefully it will happen again) then I know that I will be terrified too.

Keep posting honey, loads of people will share your fears.

When are you planning on testing??? Can't be long now?! Hehe!

Take care,

Love Kristen xxx

Hiya honey!
No it doesnt sound silly at all! I know EXACTLY how you are feeling. I have only now felt able to get back on the ttc wagon after my mmc last september, now looking back i wish i hadn't wasted all this time and i had actually been brave and got back on the wagon!
Fingers crossed you have done it this month it would be wonderful!
xxxxxxxx

Hi Angela

It doesnt sound silly at all! most people would share your fear, dealing with loss is hard and ttc is certainly an emotional rollercoaster and for anyone that has suffered a loss like yourself I believe it makes it harder as it is a journey filled with just that little bit more worry and concern, it will happen when your body is ready, so fingers crossed this is your month Luc xxx

I feel like this every month. Excited that I could be pregnant, but petrified that I may have to go through all the heartache again. Then each month when I find out I am not pregnant I decide that maybe DH and I should do something different with our lives-change our careers, go travelling, open a restaurant, but deep down I know that I want to be a Mummy and then we start trying again. I had my MMC in March and am still coming to terms with it but try and accept there will always be a part of my heart that is sad for our lost baby.

I agree with littleminx, when your body is ready it will happen.

Hey its not silly at all - its exactly the same thoughts I had last Thursday (which was my day 10) and got myself in a tizz with what if this isn't the month, what if it happens again can I go through this pain and what not and felt guilty for wanting to replace my lost angel and things.

But we have been BDing and I have enjoyed it even though been scared and thought maybe we should use protection (!!) but I know its silly thoughts and my body will do what it feels right by it and I need to go with the flow - though its hard not to keep tizzing about things!!!!!

It will happen as the others say when you're body is ready and wishing you and all the other ladies lots of baby dust!

Good luck hunny xxxx

You lot are so lovely I don't know what I would do without you to make me feel normal, thank you!

I keep fluttering between excited, nervous and scared. It doesn't help that my OH works away in the week so I am on my own all evening (as long as my lo agrees to stay in his cot that is) and keep thinking about it. I'm so tempted to test tomorrow but I think I will manage to be good and wait till the weekend, I'll let you know when I find out...

xxx

I flutter between those feelings too - its all OK and natural (so I keep telling myself LOL)

Have you got friends and family close by to call in the eve's if you feel lonely when OH is away?

Good luck hunny xx