I can't get onto FB, I was on this morning and now it won't let me log on! :x
Sorry really need to moan and offload as I'm getting stressed and my girls are winding me up

I am having a crappy/crap/shite and more crap day today PND wise :/
We have got Alex's appointment through for the hospital for his 'official'' diagnosis for next Thursday but it's hitting me now and hard and I'm worried, I don't even know what about!
I don't even know why as I've been asking for this since he was born really but I don't know if I want it now as it makes it official and I'm crying because I am soft as shite Christ were not even onto the weekend end yet and I'm worked up about it so there it is & Lucy keeps trying to hug me better bless her and yeah I'm having a crap day :/

So how are you all doing? Are any of you out this weekend?
We have Andy's Bday party at ikon club in Bolton tommorow night (will put pics up on Sat) I bought a new dress to wear but I'm worried in case I look like a slutty butty rather than yummy mummy :lol:
Hope your all ok xxx

Aww hun, dont really know what to say but didnt want to r and r, havent seen you on here for ages, how are things?? Stupid question as they are quite obviously shite for you. It sucks that you have had to wait this long for Alex's official diagnosis, and even though in your heart you know what they will say it doesnt stop you worrying.

Isaac has a paediatrician appointment on Tuesday as his soft spot on his head hasnt closed up yet and he was 2 in April, apparantly there can be underlying health problems if it remains unclosed, it can on the other hand just be one of those things and as he is otherwise healthy I'm sure thats what it is, doesnt stop me feeling like shite and being moody and snappy coz I'm stressed as hell about the appointment now. I know its no where near the same as what you are going through with your children but I do kind of understand, especially with all the crap we had with Phil's health, oh and to make me feel even worse his appointments are looming in the not to distance future, now my sensible side is telling me that as he hasn't had any further seizures since last August or any other problems that all will be well and the tumours will not have changed, but my maniac overpowering side is obviously thinking the worst, like you, each time i think about it I end up a blubbing wreck coz I too am soft as shite

On the up side, we had a fab bank holiday weekend, took the children to the beach on Sunday had a lovely day by the river and in the park Monday, really lovely family time together. Jake's birthday is next Wednesday, he is going to be 13 OMG I am going to be a mum to a teenager, how old does that make me feel!!

I hope you enjoy your night out and I'm sure you will look like the yummy mummy rather than the slutty butty.

Take care hugs to you

Hayley xx

joanne hun,I LOVE YOU, sorry sooo late replying, hope alex app goes well :-) ur sooo strong hun and cope with things sooo well, like ur made of steel,lol (sure ur not sheffield?) u will look bloody gorgeous on ur night out defo yummy mummy!
ur gorgeous, strong, and full of humour (ooo i might turn,lol) hugs to u and babes hun. xxxx

nice to be back on rant too :-) xxxxxxx