Hi all, am new. Just thought i'd come and explain what i've just been through. Its nice to talk to people who have been through it. I found out in feb I was pregnant with my 1st, was so happy as i've never wanted anything more than to be a mum. I fell just days after having the implant removed (knew it was too good to be true). I had few pains twinges from start but just thought it was normal as body was adjusting for bubs. The pains got worse as went on so got them checked out, was told everything was ok so was happy (this was the day b4 mothers day). Anyway mothers day got here was so happy, couldnt wait to go spend day with ma mum. All was ok, had dinner then went to loo and thats when I noticed I started to bleed. So mum took me to hospital, had scan and got told there was nothing there so I had a miscarriage, but they done blood test b4 I left as my hg levels were so high. The hospital was meant to call me with results but never did so I had to phone them. Had to go back in the next day for more blood tests/scans, after a few hours I was told I was having an ectopic pregnancy. Was so confused as was still trying to come to terms with miscarriage. I was told that I could try the methotrexate injection, so had to go back the next day. Went back and had the injection and all seemed ok, my levels we're dropping and pain eased (apart from pain of not being pregnant anymore). Was up and down the hospital having blood tests/scans. Think it was bout few weeks later when I started getting pains again. Was ok most of time but when i got the pains I was in agony for 2/3 hrs at a time. Tablets and hot waterbottle worked for a while but then didnt seem to help. Phoned the hospital several times and said they would call back but never did.They just said take paracetamol and if ya not bleeding heavy I wouldnt worry to much!! The pain was getting worse so my mum decided to take me back up hospital (1 sunday nite). After 3 hrs of waiting the pain finally eased and the dr came to c me, they decided to keep me in as the pain was bad(was due for scan next morn). Really didnt wanna stay in, cried myself to sleep that nite. Had my scan the next morn and dr told me there and then that I would have to have the operation as I was bleeding inside and the mass had grown from 3cm to 4cm in my tube (obviously what all the pain was). It was 7.25 the monday nite when they came to take me for my op, I got told b4 the op that they were just going to remove my tube, couldnt believe it. I was back on the ward about 3 the next morning, had to take me straight back in after op as I lost alot of blood so had to have blood put back in me and stitched up inside. This was about 8/9 wks ago now, I'm just so sad as cant believe it happened to me, just want a baby so much it hurts, I cant stop thinking about it, am just so scared now that it will take me yrs to fall or I wont get pregnant again, it was my left tube they removed. Everywhere i look I just c babies and its so heart breaking. Worse part is not being able to try again yet, just feel so sad, I dont mean to keep thinking about it but its hard not to. I was bout 6/7 wks when all this happened. Just thought I'd come on here as its nice to talk/read other peoples stories who have been through it. xxx

[Modified by: makemeamummy on 28 May 2009 11:31:46 ]

im so sorry what a terrible thing to happen, i lost my little boy last year at 24 weeks when i fell down the stairs and it was horrible. i have a 10 yr old ds and 8 yr old dd and am now 19 wks again but nothing takes away the pain.
im sure youl be pregnant again soon, 2 of my friends who had similar exp 2 u (eptopic and miscarriage) and both now have healthy babies so dont give up hope,
look after yourself, laura